Many years ago I came to the conclusion that I’m just an awkward individual, especially in social situations. I wouldn’t say I’m a shy person but for some reason when in a social situation I tend to put my foot in my mouth a lot or say something inappropriate or just get tongue tied.
I know I’m a bit of a weirdo, I have no clue why I am this way. In job interviews I am completely different, Im focused and have absolutely no issue talking to potential employers. But meeting new people or catching up with people that I’m not as close to, Im just a different person.
So what I started doing was instead of opening my mouth and basically making a dick out of myself I would just stand back and suss people out, be on the listening end of the convo. In theory this method was a good idea. BUT, but this did have a down fall. I came across as a snobby bitch. I already have a bit of a resting bitch face and adding the anti social element to it, it didn’t look very good for me. I would look like a stuck up bitch that acts as if no ones good enough to talk to me. This couldn’t be further from the truth I don’t think like that at all!!
Another factor against me is the fact I don’t smile a lot, after a lot of my childhood with horrible messed up teeth followed by 5-6 years with braces its been stuck in my mind not really to smile. PLUS I don’t really have a good smile- great teeth but not a good smile. Yes I hear constantly “Don’t worry if you smile your face won’t crack”, Im getting on in age my face will crack if I smile. Don’t you know we get wrinkles from smiling they are called Smile Lines for a reason. Punishment for smiling.
So take this as a little warning when seeing any photos of me or meeting me in person Im not a stuck up bitch who thinks her shit don’t stink (I’m woman enough to admit it, it does stink). I am just a very awkward person that keeps to herself…..unless I have a glass of wine then my awkwardness would disappear.
Alright kids Ive got the house to myself and some Modern Family episodes to binge on with a cup of iced tea.